Cancer

 

Today my oncologist called.  She said "Hey you have a couple of minutes to talk?"  This 

means they have found something on my latest MRI.  Last November I had the last something removed. So I get to go back next week to have another biopsy.  I lost my mom 

18 years ago next month, today I sat and looked at my kids, having the same shitty thoughts 

about leaving them as I did in the fall. 

I am not sure which is worse having cancer or living with the fear of cancer.  Don't 

 misunderstand I know how bad it is, I watch it destroy my mom, but this terror that I live 

 with daily is awful.  Every test and scan involves so much stress and worry that I feel 

physically sick.  Today I sat in my room and cried my eyes out, I called my best friend and  

cried to her, I am crying now as I type this.

Sometime tonite I will move to the pissed off stage, where I just am like I don't give a fuck.  I 

mean whatever bring it on CANCER, I will kick your ASS!  My mom wrote me a letter when 

she was sick, I found it after she died.  It said that even though she didn't want to die and 

would fight to live she was at peace if God wanted to take her home.  I say BULLSHIT, 

screw that I got things to do so GOD is just going to have to wait for me...although in reality 

with some of the shit I have done it might be the other guy wait :)

So I will use the image of my favorite guy to get me thru!!

Lost Girl

Ok, so it has been a little bit, busy summer with soccer camp with the kiddos. Just finished hosting the British soccer coaches and sent them on their way so I am back at it. 

On the the good stuff...Lost Girl ...it has lots of good stuff.  First it is about the Fae, in this series the Fae include all things paranormal to include werewolves and succubus.  I know I know you are already intrigued.

The story follows Bo who was adopted and didn't until recently know she was "different".  

She finds out she is a succubus and the really fun starts. She has to be careful because she can kill us mere mortals by sucking the essence right out of us.  But hey at least we die happy.

Her BFF is Kenzi who is anything but a mere mortal even though she is a human.  She is a mad thief and also Gypsy and has connections out the wazoo.  All those who meet Kenzi can't help but have a bit of a crush on her.

I have to say I love Kenzi for her style....Hair love it...make-up love it....Shoes LOVE LOVED LOVE. Although sh eis a skinny bitch so I must remove a least a couple points for that.

Bo: Every single snake at the zoo has disappeared!
Kenzi: Maybe they're on a plane?

 

 

Next comes Trick, we are not sure who he is at the beginning and I won't tell here since I want you to watch it all on Netflix.  We do know he owns the Dal which is a bar for the  Fae and now Kenzi. We know he has some idea of who or what Bo might be.  He is the father figure that Bo has never had and seems to be a great whatever he might be;)

Next is Hale, he is a cop and a Siren extraordinaire.  He helps Bo when she needs information and his family is major players in the Fae society.  He doesn't sing a siren song but instead whistles and that whistle can do all kinds of things. He is a sweet guy who gets into a position he doesn't want to be.

 

 

 

Last there is Dyson. He is a werewolve and I must say I have a thing for weres.  Any show I watch that has at least one were that is who I am totally in love with and it is no different here. Dyson is also a cop and a "food" source for Bo.  He loves her and loses her but you have to watch for more of that.  He helps her with cases and protects Kenzi. I think he looks at Kenzi like a bratty little sister.  He is also eyes for Trick for things going on with Bo.

And now for some GIFS because i am loving them

You heard her go to Netflix or Amazon Instant and watch Lost Girl!!!

Let's Get in the GAME

Ghostwalkers

Karen Marie Moning is my favorite author but another one who I read religiously is Christine Feehan.  She writes her Dark , Leopard and Game series.  Love them all.

This is about her Game series feature the wonderfully alpha Ghostwalker men and their equally talented women.

(www.christinefeehan.com)

Now without giving to much away this series is about how a genius scientist, who is well beyond any of peers, has slowly tumbled into madness.  The descent we find out started YEARS ago when he would acquire baby girls from around the world that had some kind of ability and then do genetic alterations on them to enhance said abilities.  

Fast forward and he is up to his old tricks but on military members who have volunteered.  Unfortunately, they don't realize until it's too late that he has done much more than they volunteered for. 

Dr. Whitney's daughter starts to help them all in the first book after she finds out some of what her father has done.  Each book is about a soldier and hte woman he has been paired with.

WHAT!!! paired with ...yes they find out the good Doctor paired them in hopes of creating a super soldier....let the sex begin.

(https://www.facebook.com/pages/Stuart-Reardon-Professional-Athlete-and-Model)

My favorite Ghostwalker is Gator, I mean he has it all...sweet gorgeous and a Cajun....New Orleans is all over his book ...I am in heaven and after seeing pictures of Stuart Reardon with his hair curly he is my new Gator.

Another cool thing, Ms. Feehan does is she makes a trailer for everyone of her books, all are on YouTube and they are good.

Anyway, I really like this series it has everything I like ..science and paranormal stuff..check it out

ps this video isn't one of her's just a fan's!!!

Karen Marie Moning and her Alpha Ryodan

This week I have been watching and voting for Ryodan in the Vampire Book Club's Alpha Showdown(http://vampirebookclub.net/final-round-ryodan-vs-reyes-farrow-alpha-showdown-2013/).  I have also been reading the comments left by other people, good and bad about the characters.  So far many of the comments about Ryodan have been very negative.  And it made me begin to wonder about what we are really looking for in our Alphas.  

The true Alpha just is.

 He doesn't have to pretend, or impress anyone. Real alpha traits are being relaxed, speaking slower, more confidence (not faked cockiness), have a higher degree of naturally occurring muscle tone as well as higher degree of naturally-occurring male pheromone. 

Women tend to respond to alphas because alphas make women feel at ease. They don't try to impress women with conversational gymnastics, but will go up to women, remain in their space for prolonged periods of time without asking permission, or particularly saying much, and then calmly ask about mundane things, or make banal statements. 

So let's think about Barron's, did he do these things YES most definitely. 

 “I know part of what turns me on so hard, makes me so violent with lust, is that he's dangerous. I fell for the bad guy. I'm crazy about the one who's trouble. The alpha that doesn't play well with others and doesn't take orders from anyone.”
― Karen Marie Moning, Shadowfever

If you all remember the Barron's POV sex scene ( I mean who could forget right) and you can get in audio format with the wonderful Phil Gigante here  https://www.karenmoning.com/store/index.php?option=com_wbnanocart&Itemid=65

I remember when Karen first gave this scene to us, we read it and the comments started to fly, and more than a few were outraged at the thought that he might have done it for real but we were left with the question of did we think he really did. I for one think he did and I almost loved him more for it, but that is a whole other post that would delve way to far into my psyche that you all don't need to go;)  Barron's takes what he wants and is unforgiving about it, but like any true alpha he takes care of those he considers are in his "pack", the Nine, Mac, his son and even Dani to a certain degree.  But also like any good alpha he kicks those that aren't needed out like Fiona.  

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Now let's talk about Ryodan, in the Fever series I never heard any real hard feelings against him.  Then comes Iced and BOOM suddenly people hate him even though he hasn't changed from the glimpses of him we saw in the Fever series.  What has changed is the center of his focus....Dani a fourteen year old girl.  Before Iced on goodreads.com there was a discussion on the possibility for Ryodan and Dani to end up together and while there was a few grumbles about age nothing major.  So I ask is it the age or the violence that has turned so many people against Ryodan?

I think it is the violence, the fact that he is willing to beat the crap out of her to get her to act the way he needs her to.  So now we must ponder why he would do this is it just for the giggles, I don't think so.  Dani is an enigma, we don't know what she is, she doesn't know what she is but maybe Ryodan does or at least he seems to have an idea. 

“You’ll never be just anything. A tsunami can never be ‘just’ a wave.”
“Get off my chin.”
“I like that about you. Waves are banal. Tsunamis reshape the Earth. Under the right circumstances, even entire civilizations.”
I blink.
“You’re going to be one hell of a woman one day, Dani.”
― Karen Marie Moning, Iced (Dani O'Malley #1)

So he see something in her and maybe that something that we can't see or even fathom is the reason he is willing to hurt her. I think if I was around Dani I would want to hurt her just because of her attitude, don't get me wrong I love her MEGAness and I get she has issues from her childhood(don't we all) but if she was in my house I probably would have put the hurt on her a couple of time myself. My kids can attest I do not suffer foolishness. 

Ryodan also is protective of her in his own way and would probably be more protective if it didn't chafe her so much.

 “The more excited I get, the more I vibrate."
"Now there's a thought," Lor says.
"If you mean what I think you mean, you want to shut the fuck up and never think it again," Ryodan says.”
― Karen Marie Moning, Iced (Dani O'Malley #1) 

Dani care for him in her own way.

"When I thought I'd killed him, I felt more alone than I've felt in a long time. Like I couldn't stand walking through this city knowing he wasn't in it. Like somehow, as long as he was out there somewhere, if I was ever really in trouble, I knew where I could go and while maybe he wouldn't do exactly what I wanted him to do, he'd keep me alive. He'd get me through whatever it was to live another day."
— Karen Marie Moning (Iced (Dani O'Malley #1) (Fever #6)) 

So this story of Ryodan and Dani, we don't know where it will end but who are we to try and steer the course because of how it makes us feel. I would never presume to tell someone who they can love.

"You love someone because they sing a song only your heart can understand.”
― L.J. Smith