Dealing with PCD

OMG

 I have PCD

(Post Con Depression)

(this is my name for it)

 

 

Ok so months ago I realized that Norman Reedus was coming to St Louis.  I was going that was final, then I realize he and Sean Patrick Flanery would be in Nashville and I was like "wait a tick" I am going there..you know double the pleasure=double the fun!!

So I bought my ticket and I felt like this..

fast forward to a few days before the Con and I started packing

and the nerves started to build then suddenly I was driving to Nashville...

 

 I walk in and see Norman and Sean and I am all 

The I meet up with my twitter friends and it gets to this level

 And then just as quickly it was over, the hugs, the pictures and the fun and I was heading home

and I was like this 

 

 and this 

So here I am sitting in my house and I am looking at pictures and watching youtube videos and movies.

 

 It might be getting better but it doesn't seem like it.

So I am like

 and my day to day life is a little boring

 If this seems familiar to you that means you too have PCD.  You worked for months to prepare for the Con - you sweated, obsessed, planned, rehearsed, imagined and then,

 it is over.  It is common to feel a sense of let-down after the completion of something into which you have put a lot of energy, emotion and time. The thing you looked forward to and obsessed over, focused your energies on,  talked about and the thing that you put everything off until "after" ....is over. "Post Con Depression" sets in. 

So now what do you do?

According to Light on the Subject, there are steps to get back to the old you..

 

Three Stages of Post-Event Recovery
 

Reflect and Rest:

"Notice any feelings that you or others that were involved in your event may be experiencing. Are you disappointed? Exhausted? Happy? Elated?  Just "Blah"?  Accept that you may have conflicting feelings of elation, exhaustion and letdown that rise up at different times of the day or week and that is perfectly okay.   Discuss the feelings with someone close to you. "

I say...Remember to give yourself time to grieve

Remember and Revel:

"Think about your event, your achievement, your "party." Recognize the highlights, talk about the event, look at the photos, laugh and debrief. Keep the positive memories flowing around that event. Create a visible reminder for yourself - a framed photo? A new screensaver? No, this is not "living in the past", it is simply giving the proper credit to a significant time in your life. Continue to celebrate your achievement."

Revive and Re-ignite: 

"Start thinking about what you want to create for the future. What exciting event do you imagine in your future?  Re-ignite your and your group's passion by dreaming of the future possibilities.  What is your future vision?  What are you dreaming about?And yes, get excited again.

  "What the caterpillar calls the end, the rest of the world calls butterfly"  - Lao Tzu

And so I have begun to plan for the next meeting, tighter hugs and the smells of Christmas Morning and heaven rolled into one...

 It appears to be a vicious cycle at least here in my head but at least I made friends that are in same boat.

Meeting Flandus Part 2

The Great and Powerful Sean Patrick Flanery

He is a little bit of a wizard, I think.  OK, so as you know I have a DEEP love of Flandus, half of which is Sean. I have already wrote a blog about how he is a great person....this was before I even MET him.

I drove 5 hours to Nashville, specifically to meet Mr. Flanery...Norman is coming to St Louis which is like 30 minutes from me...but NO I needed/had to meet Sean.

I got in my car Friday, turned on my IPOD and listened to my Reedus/Flanery playlist....don't judge me!

Anyway, my nervousness started the moment I pulled out of my driveway and progressively got worse the closer to Nashville I got...

This was me all the way. The the next morning I get there and as you know I went to see Norman first and I walked away a little like this...

I managed to make my way to Sean's line and I stood there looking at him from afar.....looking like this

And as I moved closer and could here him talking and interacting with people...I progressed to this

Soon, I was next in line trying to collected my thoughts so that I didn't sound as retarded as I did with Norman...I am pretty sure I failed miserably...

So, I get up there and I give him the gift I made him, which was a quilted sign that said Shine..until tomorrow with a sunset.  I, of course can not find a picture of it...whatever.  He was so great taking pictures of it and seem genuinely surprised that I had made it.  He said he loved it....squeeee!!!!

Then he talked to me some more and took a picture with me.

I look like a deer in headlights...but that's ok.

I felt like this...

So remaining upright was mission accomplished for me.

Here is what I learned ....I love this man even more now. He truly enjoys his fans spending so much time with each person that I overheard some of the WizardWorld folks complaining about not being able to keep his line moving....WELL BOO HOO for you guys...He is truly a hilarious cat who on a scale from 1 to 10 is awesome. He has endeared me to him more if that was possible.

The last day, I told him I just wanted a really good hug...and boy did I get one

I already have plans to go again....to see this wonderful human being that has touch so many lives....O Captain, My Captain!

so just to make it clear I love these boys and I love their friendship...

And again I am like this 

 and this 

hopefully this won't all end with a matching pair of restraining orders...just kidding I am back to stalking online

LOVE YOU GUYS

The Flandus Report

Meeting Norman Reedus and Sean Patrick Flanery

OK you all know how I LOVE these men.

Well if they didn't know before Nashville I think they do now.  Or maybe not....not sure if I spoke coherently..I know I was shaking and sweating and felt like I would puke...

It was a perfect storm of all of these feelings.  

First I got into Norman's line after standing back just staring for like 15 minutes trying to work up the nerve, I had a VIP pass which since I was a CON virgin...

I had no idea would bump me right up to the front of line..so I had NO TIME to even begin to get my thoughts together and ...

I am standing in front of him, I THINK I said hello, he said "Hi, sweetheart" this is when my brain really began to lose function.  I am hoping I didn't look like this...

Anywho, I handed him my gift..a vintage camera lighter. He was like cool what is it and I said a lighter ...he was then fascinated ...playing with it showing it to Sean Clark ect.. Now I must say at this point he was holding my hand which was shaking like crazy and he was talking about how sweet I was and to give him a hug, so I might have looked like this...

I must make it clear this man smells like Heaven and Christmas morning rolled into one, with a side serving of sex and lust and dear God does he know it because he pulls you in tight, his hair was stuck to my mouth because of my lipgloss and it was all I could do not to take a bite. I digress, we talked a little more and he hugged me again. Then it was time to move on and in a hazy cloud of longing and desire I shuffled away.

Now I had read post about how sweet he was and all that but until you are with him, you have no idea.  I got the feeling he would like to spend more time with each person.  And I would have loved to but I also am not sure if I could have taken it.  At my photo Op I asked for a smile..he looked at me after it was over and said I did smile ...when I saw it ..well there is a tiny smile but more like a smirk.....Next time Mr Reedus I will get a smile somehow!

and now that I am home I feel like...

and I am doing this as I watch movies and stare at pictures ...

To be Continued because Sean needs a whole post about his greatness